An Angry Rambling--I Apologize In Advance

Ok so I am so looking for a full-time job that is mostly Monday-Friday with insurance and sick leave.

My mom and I did the Garage/Craft Sale and made more than we had to pay for the table, but not as much as we made last October. We are planning on doing it again this fall. I am hopeful that we do better then. I am looking for other venues to sell at, but when I work most weekends it makes it hard.

I have had tooth problems for a few years now and no insurance to take care of the problems. I "technically" work part-time, but tend to work a lot of full-time hours and receive no benefits. I can not seem to get ahead. I can not get my bills completely paid off or save anything. I am so tired of this.

Another part-time job that is going nowhere fast.

I would love to go back to school, but I just do not have the money. I did get an Associate Degree in Marketing in the mid-1990's, but personally I think it was a waste of time. I had been offered some scholarships and such to a traditional four year university, but I did not have my license or a car then and was unable to take advantage of it. Anyway, I would have had to take only two actual marketing classes and the rest was all the other junk (yes I mean junk) that is required for a Bachelor's Degree that has absolutely nothing to do with whatever degree you are going for.

My tooth starting hurting again on Monday, but I really did not think it was "the tooth" again, because the corner of a box had caught my face in the exact spot of my problematic broken tooth. I went through a severe infection and much pain about a month ago from this same tooth.

I tried to call in sick that Monday last time it was hurting and my face was swollen (very swollen), but of course there was nobody willing to work. I had worked that whole weekend with a very swollen and painful face. I work in the service industry so a person can imagine how depressing and embarrassing that was for me. People staring and making stupid comments like you really should go see a dentist about that. Like I did not figure that one out. My reply was with what money and who was going to work? Really people can people so damn stupid, rude, and insensitive sometimes.

Did those people really believe I wanted to have a broken and infected tooth? People act like they care, but they really do not most of the time. They just think they have to say something to make others think they are a good and decent human being. Unless you really care and are going to really help me by paying for a dentist or with a new job then please do me and the world a favor and keep your mouth shut.

I rarely believe people anymore when they say they care about what happens to me. It is hard when they constantly remind me in what they say and do that they really do not care. I had to borrow money from my mother to get the tooth pulled. I am just grateful that the regular dentist was able to pull it for $125.00 and that I did not have to go to an oral surgeon that would have cost me between $500.00 and $800.00. That is what my dentist estimated it would have cost me. He even got me in the same day I called.

Someone had sent me a link to an "affordable" health care where I live, but when I called the recording said they were not taking any new patients. This place is supposed to be for residents that have no insurance or are under-insured and they were not taking on any new patients.

So in other words if you have no insurance or are under-insured in the nation of ours you are totally in trouble. My mother wonders why I keep getting told by my Canadian friends to move there. They do not have this kind of trouble. If you need help you get help.

Sorry for the rambling, but ever since I moved back here in 1992 my life has just gotten worse and I just can not seem to find a way to make it better. It definitely is not for lack of trying.

I went to school, work hard, rarely call in sick, usually go in when called and the idiots that jump from job to job, get fired, come in late or call in a lot, et cetera gets all the breaks. Hardworking honest individuals need not apply because the companies would rather hire idiots.